Friday, January 04, 2008
usually not 1 who'll post her secrets here but im really struggling this time. my dad left home last night, leaving us with all his burdens. he made me kept all his shameful acts a secret long ago. out of respect, i did. almost went crazy keeping it down inside me. was so emo that school seems like something unattainable. wanted to give up really. the stress is overwhelming. couple of months back when my mum found out about the shameful stuffs, it was hell for us. me and my siblings could hardly sleep at night with all the shoutings. we'll cry discussing about what's going to happen next. mum became suicidal. what else can we do but to follow her around? no i'm not leading a slackish life. im living in fear. debts amounting to 40k to settle. mum didn't know the whole truth yet. imagine her reaction if i told her everything. im keeping a secret. one that will probably suck my whole life away. now im really juggling. i need to go school but i can't. i really want to escape.
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