Thursday, June 01, 2006
ultimate relief for me when i could finally log into my blogger..ytd i was complaining and whining so much about it..until i give yx my id and pw for him to try logging in and he got error..he gotta wait 24 hrs before he can log in his..sorry dude. am very sleepy now..like super..kept nodding off in class..lecturer teaching java but im not awake to listen..grr. typing codes blindly now..in 5 mins time i got java test..im so sleepy man...my god..i need sleep!!!!!!!!shall update this entry later..got loads to write today..=)
ok cont from previous..i juz finished my test..i doze off during the test..and somehow i woke up and continue typing..an hr later im out of the class..n im the first to leave..haiz..as usual(nt dat i wanted it). really sleepy..went to canteen..drank barley..sat down there n waited for classmates..wait until i wanna doze off again which is abt 30 mins? den i went off..to my nxt class n continue tis entry =)
tot abt it alot..from certain signs it's obvious dat it's impossible..n i noe exactly wad to do from now. tis morning while walking to sch, i tot of targa..how he betrayed n backstab me twice..i deserved it like i said before..i wasn't a gd person last time..after i grad from sec sch..i saw reflections of myself from others..can't say i grown up..let's juz say..i learnt. dun exactly haf a confidante..used to have but they're all gone now..some left my life..some juz..dunno..start to grow something more than friendship for me? =S haiz..neh mind..
had a chat recently with hotshot..about forgiving and forgetting..yes yes..familiar ain't it? half my life i been wanting ppl to forgive me and forget wadever wrong i did. when i was younger..i dun really care so much..i juz hate who i wan to hate and bear grudges with who i wan..so childish rite? but after i grad from sec sch..everything juz reflects bk..so i juz forgave everyone no matter wad they do to me..no point hating someone for a long time..life's short..i juz dun wanna regret anymore..yes i fear of being hurt..but..haiz i still tink everyone deserves a chance..but..* ***** *** *** * ******. =)
i changed my blog add..for good luck haha..alot of things became clearer for me recently so..a new me a new blog add? LOLz. but tis time round..wun be giving my blog add to many ppl..haha..when will my new specs be ready???!!! im getting blind soon..squinting my eyes until i suspect it mite haf shrink..well..gonna stop here now..hotshot looks bored..going to entertainhim in class..=P
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